Only a matter of time....

Waiting is so hard when you are right at the end of pregnancy! I am now 36 weeks and I am also off of bed rest. So Hailey decided since I was off of bed rest that she didn't need to come anymore. My Dr. told me that I could go into labor any time since I was dilated to a three already and have been for almost a week and 60% effaced. I am so curious as to what I am dilated to or if I am the same as I was last Thursday. My next app is not until the 3rd of June and I will be 38 weeks at that point, in which my dr will strip my membranes to help out if I have not had her by then. So I am just a tad anxious and just waiting for the contractions to come and not stop. They have been doing that for the past couple day's. They will come and then after 4 or 5 of them in a row, BAM they just disappear. not very fun to get me all excited and then rip it away from me. Oh well. I have been going on walks in the morning with my girls to the park and will continue to do so to kind of push things along. It's good for me to be able to get out since I was not able to do so for several weeks. It is also good for the girl's, they get their outside play time at the park and I get my exercise. Win win situation for us all:) So hopefully my next post will be because I have pictures for our new one and a fun story to tell!
Cross your fingers for me and send happy labor vibes my way as Paula would say...:)

confirmations

It has been such a wonderful couple of days! It did not start off so wonderful though. Two days ago I had an app with Dr. England. I told him that everything was the same as it was two weeks prior and so he decided it would be best to see how far my cervix was dilated. Sure enough my cervix was not behaving, even though I was doing absolutely nothing all day long. I was already dilated to a two and 50% effaced. He really wants me to be at 36 weeks, which is in just 2 weeks. So needless to say I am still on the lovely bed rest, but that is okay as long as our Hailey gets here safe and sound. That night I started getting really sharp cramping in my lower stomach with contractions every now and again, so I was not too concerned. The next morning proved to be worse though, I was still having the cramping but now it was all I could do to even get out of bed because it hurt so much and then I was constantly in the bathroom throughout the day. I had not been feeling sick except for the stomach twists. Later in the morning I had got to the point where I felt like I had the chills and was extremely tired, so I just lay in bed with the blankets pulled up high trying to ignore the irritating pain. Later that night Steve and I had planned to go on our routine date night, but with everything that was going on we weren't going to be going anywhere. SO we planned a date night in our room! :) Steve went to Panda Express and got me a 4 entree meal for the price of a 3 entree! I had orange chicken, mushroom chicken, Sweet fire chicken and broccoli beef with fried rice and noodles. MMMMMMMM it was so delicious. Continuing on though, I was still in so much pain, so I asked Steve to call our good friend Roy Roberts over to give me a blessing. I have always had such wonderful experiences with blessings and was very much looking forward to being relieved of, if not all, some of the pain. The blessing was more than I had ever imagined it would be. The moment their hands were placed on my head I was immediately filled with this warm sensation starting from my head all the way to my toes and I could not help but cry. I was told not to worry about when Hailey would come into this world because when she did come she would be happy and healthy and there would be no problems. I was then told that she and I would have a special bond that I would not have with my other children and that she would be able to come and talk to me about anything that was going on in her life. He said that I would be able to have extra patience and tolerance towards my other children during this difficult time and that my love for them would only increase from where it was now, That my heavenly father loved me and was proud of me and my choices, That I would be able to sleep peacefully and be able to get the rest I needed to feel my best and that this pain would be relieved from me. Everything came from such a higher power and it was so amazing to feel that love from my savior and know that he knows me individually among the billions of people in this world. What was so amazing was after the blessing ended, I stood up and it was like the pain had melted away that I ad been feeling all day long! What a miracle! I then decided it would be best to take a nice warm bath to relax my muscles and have time to contemplate everything that had just happened. Going to bed that night was so wonderful not feeling the pain I had been feeling for the past day and a half. Even though it did not last, I was happy to have it relieved enough that I could sleep. Today I am feeling under the weather, but that is okay, I am not worrying and saying what if this and what if that. I know heavenly father is watching over me and my family and will do what is best for us. I know this gospel is true, how could anyone deny the feelings the spirit brings? I know I never will.

Just BREATHE

So I have decided I officially hate Braxton Hicks contractions, they don't hurt at all, but having them all day long makes it so hard on my lungs. I can't breath at all, and I find myself most of the time trying not to hyperventilate! So annoying.
Last Night at 3 am I woke up suddenly cause I heard very faintly someone crying upstairs, I thought for sure it was KaraLynn so I woke up Steve to go check on her, which he was very irritated at me for. He went halfway up the stairs and then came back down saying I was crazy and there was complete silence, so very irritated I got out of bed, crawled over him (very heard to do being prego) and went up myself only to find her completely konked out. So I find myself feeling stupid cause I KNOW I heard someone crying. so I laid back down in bed and listened and again could hear the crying, I KNEW I WASN'T GOING CRAZY!!! As I listened harder it almost seemed like ti was outside, so then I was awake for about an hour until I couldn't hear it anymore worrying if there really was someone outside crying and if I was a horrible person for not checking??? Guess I will never know what it was or who it was. CrAzY

update on fishing trip

So the fishing trip that Steve went on for steelhead, yeah not so hot. I guess that a lot of the fish were gone and none were biting. So the whole trip was a bust. All Steve caught were a bunch of crap fish and missed a couple steelhead, his dad on the other hand caught a couple, but had to let them go because they were wild, and you can only keep the hatchery ones. LAME... So oh well, but here are a couple photos from the trip:)

GOING INSANE

So I went to a Dr. app a couple of weeks ago where I explained to my Dr. that I was having a lot of contractions and sharp shooting pains through my stomach, so he decided to check my cervix to see if it had dilated any. Much to my dismay, it had started to dilate already a 1 and I was only 30 weeks at the time. So he put me on bed rest, which has been extremely hard for me, BUT since we are living my my in law's my mother in law has been my saving grace! She wakes up with the girls in the morning and takes care of their every need all day long since I cant go up the stairs or walk all too much ( even though I have cheated many times). So I have been on bed rest for the past two weeks now, the longest but shortest two weeks of my life. I had another Dr. app today where I had to give a report on everything that had been going on. Despite me laying down or sitting all day even with occasional standups and walk arounds, I still was having contractions and sharp pains through my thighs and lots of pressure in my lower back and lower abdomen. So he directed me to stay on bed rest and hope that things hold off until 34 weeks, but he is really wanting me to get to 36 weeks. At 36 weeks he said he would take me off of bedrest and let the baby come when she wants. So I could be having her a lot earlier, which makes me happy, but also nervous, because I for sure don't want to have any problems and would hate to see her in the NICU. So I will keep my fingers crossed that she grows and develops quickly so that she can enter this world perfect and healthy as ever!

The negatives of being on bed rest is I never hear from anyone, family and friends included, I very rarely get a text or calls from anyone and am dying to have my phone ring just so I can chat with someone. I really miss not being able to do normal day routines with my girls. My favorite was holding Brynlee with her blanket and singing her a song before bed. She always gave me this look like I love you mom, and since I have been deprived of that, she now only like daddy or Nana to lay her down which makes me sad. It has definitely been a hard couple weeks staring at the same walls, to keep myself busy I just make bows and watch movies and read books. Makes time go by a little faster for me so I am not constantly looking at the clock. I keep telling myself that this is such a short time in life compared to the whole scheme of things and that can make it through another 4 weeks of this.

Fishing Trip

Pictures soon to follow! So Steve left early this morning for his annual Steel head fishing trip with his dad and friend Harley. It is in Idaho somewhere, but it is 6 hrs away from here. Get got up at 4:45 this morning to leave at 5! he had everything all ready and was gone for about an hour when I felt his cell hone vibrate at my feet. He had unplugged it and taken his charger for the wall and car and left his phone here! So needless to say I am feeling a little bit of a withdraw from him. I have no contact with him until he gets home Saturday evening. Long trip and a long 3 days without hearing his voice. To top it off I can't stand sleeping alone in our bed! I did it all growing up so why is it a problem now??? Totally stupid but I guess I have grown used to having someone there to protect me and keep me warm since I am always so cold! Anyway, he will be back Saturday evening so that needs to come fast. In the mean time I have done laundry, cleaned our room and both girls rooms, vacuumed, folded and put away laundry and also started more laundry in the washer. So I was finally able to get myself in the mood to do something productive which I have not done all week. So I am hoping to get myself caught back up before Steve gets home so he can come home to all clean clothes and a clean room. I was not in the mood to cook and I needed diapers anyway, so I drove the 5 minutes to Wal-Mart and got diapers and also bought the girls popcorn chicken from the deli. They love the chicken there so I knew they would be happy! So all in all it has been half of a good day at least. I got to spend time with my girls, and even though they cried for daddy most of the day and I wished that he was there too it was still an okay day.
Tomorrow Leslie, the girls, and I are going to go to Marie Calendar's because we have a coupon for a free pie! MMMMMM So we will get some yummy food and a pie and then Saturday morning we are going to go spend some time with Jenn and her kids and go to Wheeler farm to take pictures and have fun with the kids for a few hours. I am so excited to get some cute pictures and let the kids run! SO I will soon have pictures of Steve's fishing trip and then pictures from Wheeler Farm!

Friends!

We have for sure had so much fun the past couple weeks with making new friends! Steve and I have been going to a financial peace class that is being hosted through the church and we met up with the Crookstons that are in our ward as well going to the class. We started sitting next to them and goofin' off in class BAD US! So we exchanged phone numbers and started talking a lot over text and facebook and found out that KaraLynn was 6 months younger than Brighton and Brynlee was only 3 months younger than Morgan! They quickly got into a tight friendship and Kara and Brighton are so stinkin' cute together! Brynlee doesn't seem to care who she plays with as long as she is included! They love being able to come over to Jenn's because the backyard is so big and there are lots of toys for them to play with and lots of friends. As for me, I finally was able to find someone I could talk to and hang out with too that helped me stay sane and not stress out so much! I have not had a friend like that since High School and I really needed someone like that in my life. Steve for sure is happy about it too because he knows I have somewhere our girls can play and somewhere I can go and someone to hang with! We have had many fun days over here and I love every minute of it, even though we don't do anything at all, just watch the kids play and make lunch, and just chat it really is the highlight of my days! Friends are definitely good to have around!
We had a relief society birthday dinner last night so I went and picked up Jenn and her sister Paula and we just carpooled together. I brought this yummy Strawberry jello cake and Paula brought this divine looking German Chocolate cake!!! it seriously looked like something off of Matilda! That awesome cake that boy is forced to eat? yeah mmmmm! So we had a good time there and after is usually where it catches me in a weird place because I never have had a reason to stay after because I don't have friends to talk with. This time Jenn, Paula, Elizabeth and I stayed almost 45 minutes after just talking and laughing! It was so much fun! Life is for sure rich when you have friends to spend it with and laugh with!

Kara decides she wants to be a beautician

So kara decided a couple weeks ago that she wanted to be a beautician! I had gone to do something I can't remember where I went, but in the mean time steve Text me saying that kara had cut her hair!!! I was so sad cause she had to have a bunch of hair cut off before for having gum melted into it to her scalp... So she went from middle back length hair to chin length. ANYWAY, So I asked him how bad it was and all he said was that she just looked really stupid! So I was really nervous to go home. When I got inside I saw her hair, she had cut off half her hair on the right side of her head so it kinda looked like half a mullet. So ugly! So to fix it I just combed over more hair from the other side to make it took not so bad. I thought I had it fixed.

The next day i come downstairs after just a few minutes of them being alone and see hair all over the floor, I look up and see KaraLynn standing there with scissors in hand and look at her hair.... here is the result... see for yourself!

So as you can see, the right side of her head is really thinned out from the day before and then the new haircut she cut off most of her bangs and then also did this to Brynlee's hair....

So now Brynlee also has ugly hair thanks to her big sister who chopped the crown of her hair off to the scalp. So it is spiky and when I put it in ponytails it spikes around it so its cute when its done, but just down like this it looks horrible. SO SAD!! I told kara that we were going to chop off her hair like a boys cause it was so destroyed and she just sobbed! So I felt like I had made my point and just do my best to make it look decent. I can now laugh at this and later will always remember how sad I was but how funny it really was. Who cares! Atleast hair grows back! So this is what they look like when I have it all done cute

And Brynlee...

February!

This month has been one for the books for us! It was really exciting at first then turned sour really fast. We got word from our renters that they had bought a house and would be moving out so we could move back on march 1st. We were excited about it because that meant we would be able to be on our own again and just in time for the baby to come into our lives. A few days later our renters had still not made their rent payment for the month of Feb. so I text her and asked where it was. She said that they weren't going to pay it because that's what our security deposit was for. Needless to say they went completely against the contract and now are taking them to court for the rent, plus damages. Plans were still in full swing for us to move in on the 1st of March so that was still really exciting and I have been really anxious because I just need my own space and privacy. In the mean time...

KaraLynn got really sick. She was throwing up for reasons we have no idea. It was all dry heaving and went on all night long. So I was one tired mommy the next day. She seemed to be Ok throughout the next day and slowly we started to let her eat here and there just to make sure she would not throw up a whole bunch of stuff. So She finally got past it and was fine. The next day Brynlee started to get really cranky and nothing seemed to calm her down. She started to get a fever, luckily without throwing up, and at first it was 101.5 then it went to 102. so that was a rough night too. she would get so hot she would sweat so I was constanly in there giving more tylenol to make the fever go down. Thus lasted for 2 days then finally subsided. THEN KaraLynn decided she wanted a fever too... Hers went from 100 to 101 to 102 to 103!!! Even though I was giving Tylenol to her it would not help. So Steve being wonderful took over for me and put her in a lukewarm bath which brought it back down to 102 and throughout the night with the help of a cold washrag to her head it went to normal by the next afternoon. Rough couple weeks that was. Little did I know it was just beginning...
Within the next few days I started to have lots of Braxton hicks contractions. They didn't seem to want to stop and suddenly I started to have hard cramping with it too which made me really nervous. So I got on the phone with my dr and told them what was going on. they had me come in for some tests to see if I had infections which were all negative. They told me to go straight to labor and delivery the next day if I was still experiencing them. So the next morning I got up and felt completely fine. did my normal stuff, dishes, breakfast, getting the girls dressed. About an hour into the day I started having them again hard so I went in. My doctor checked me and told me everything was fine and hoped it was just growing pains pulling things around, but that he wanted me on a strict bedrest the next week! I was not allowed to walk around very much, no stairs, no holding my baby, and I needed a babysitter to do it all for me. Luckily I had my mother in law (LIFESAVER) and she took good care of them for me. It eventually went away. Phewww...
the closer we came to march 1st the more stressed we became realizing we didn't have the funds for food when we moved out. The monthly income just wasn't all adding up and we were coming out short a lot! So we had some heart to hearts with our inlaws and decided that we would continue to rent out our home in Eagle Mountain until we knew if Steve would be getting the job in Idaho. It was a very hard decision and lots of tears were involved on my part because I didn't want to accept the fact that we could not do it. Now that it is all said and done and we have it back on the market we feel and know we made the right choice and are just grateful for family that can help us out so generously. We may not be where we want to be right now, but in the long term scheme of things we will be in a good spot and be able to do things on our own easily. I know if we keep making the right choices with our finances and continue to pay off things and eliminate the crud we got ourselves into we will be fine and come out on top! Life is good despite all that is going on because I have my wonderful husband and my beautiful CRAZY girls with me to help me through and soon I will have a precious miracle from heaven in a few short months. Life is crazy but good:)

Life this year

So this year has been a crazy one already! So here is my best to fit it all in.

Steve got a call back from Idaho for the job at the Site, he is now in the top 8 people being looked at out of the 650 that applied and then the 35 that got interviews and now the top 8, and 4 are being hired. He toured the areas he could that he didn't need a clearance for and felt really good about the job. The benefits are really great, the pay is twice what we make now, which we will never make here in Utah, and it's in a place where we feel like home. We would be living in the Idaho Falls area. We have no idea when we will be starting the job though. Right now we are going through an FBI clearance which they say could take anywhere from 4 months to a year and a half, so it's just waiting, waiting, waiting. I guess the FBI puts this more on the non important list, so we are really hoping they get it done in the 4 month time period so we don't have to sit in limbo for so long.
We got word from our renters that they had purchased a house and were going to be out March 1st. So we are really excited to be moving back to Eagle Mountain next month. I am really antsy to be on my own again and have a place that is more secure for my kids. It has been really rough on my oldest, KaraLynn, especially. She acts out a LOT and I can't seem to make it stop. There is not enough consistency in discipline and things that she can and can't do. The past few nights have been the worst. She has been waking up in the middle of the night and coming upstairs to sleep on the couch which I don't mind as long as she is quiet, but then she decided to start waking up Brynlee to play because she was bored, which did not set well with me. So then I told her she had to stay in her room when she woke up. The next night she wouldn't even sleep in her room and she would scream for about 3 hrs! She said she was scared of her room and the monsters that would come out of pictures and through her windows. That did not set well with me since I had such bad experiences when I was little. So I decided not to ignore it and also decided she was too young at 3 yrs old to be sleeping in her own room in the basement by herself. So since there is no where else for her to go, she now has a bed on our floor at the foot of our bed until we move back into our house in march. So we are hoping it is a fast fly by month.
Our baby is growing normal and healthy so far! I am due June 18Th 2010 and we are expecting another girl. It is my favorite part and something I have major withdrawals from when they are born, when they kick me. I love being able to feel her move around and know her moods and when she isn't too happy with me. She is EXTREMELY active and even my doctor was getting frustrated because he was trying to measure her but she would keep doing somersaults making it hard for him to measure her head. Too funny. We are so excited to meet her in June! Just a few short months away. Another reason why I an anxious to get back into the house. There is no way we would be able to fit 3 kids here.
Last night I had the strangest dream, but it was such a good one. I went into labor and Steve wouldn't be there because he was stuck at work. When the baby was born the doctor handed her to me and said congratulations, you have a beautiful healthy baby BOY! I was like wait I was supposed to have a girl???!!! I was so happy but sad cause Steve couldn't be there to see his son be born. But once he got there it was so great, and we ended up naming him Cooper Stephan Ohngren. He was so precious and I still remember how it felt to hold that new baby in my arms, the smell and the feel of his skin against mine. It really is the most incredible feeling ever. I am extremely excited for our little girl to come, but if she turned out to be a boy in the end I wouldn't not mind that so much:)
Well that is us for now. Busy Crazy life, but wouldn't trade a second of it!

ITS A GIRL

We found out on the 2ND of January from Fetal Fotos in Murray that we are welcoming another Little girl into our home. We were really hoping it was time for our boy to come, but not the case and we will just have to wait a little bit longer. I am really hoping our boy comes next because it is our last baby. Only 4 kids for this Ohngren family. We are not sure on names yet for her because we were really counting on a boy so we only had boy names chosen. Oh well, there is always a time and place and this little girl was supposed to come now so we are happy and anxious to meet her in June of 2010!

Christmas 2009 and birthdays

I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas. I know that the Ohngren family did! We got so many wonderful gifts from everyone and I think the best part was just seeing how excited KaraLynn and Brynlee were. Well maybe not so much Brynlee, But Kara Could hardly sleep the night before. We got both girls into bed at 8:30, and started to set up stuff in the front room. Brynlee got a bunch of fun toys which she desperately needed. she got this rocking horse that sings and she just loves it! She sat on it the whole morning while I opened her gifts for her. She was not all into the whole Christmas thing, considering that she is only 1. She also got a few different clothes and fun candy. KaraLynn got clothes and a Vtech Vmotion from Santa Clause which she does not totally get how to play but she is sure trying. She also got lipstick, chapstick, playdough, a bicycle helmet, lots of books and coloring books markers and crayons, she made out like a fat rat! Steve and I got lots of fun things as well including a george foreman grill, a toolbox for Steve for his taxidermy supplies, I also got him a camera for his hunting which is so nice! He got me some Cd's, A huge red purse that I love! and a wallet that matches, it looks like crocodile skin. SO CUTE! I got another purse from my mother in law that is super cute too and am just waiting to use it. I got cookbooks and other fun stuff, but we got lots of nice gifts too and have wonderful family that helped out way more than they should have LOL but it was sure appreciated.
5days after Christmas came Brynlee's 1st birthday. she was so cute, she really is not into the opening presents thing, but that's OK she has next year to be more into it. we had my family, the coopers, come over to The Ohngrens house for the celebration, we had cake that looked like birthday presents stacked on each other because of the way I decided to put the icing on. It was cute but the cake we used was strawberry which we will never do again. Super sweet! too sweet for me, so needless to say we also did cupcakes and those were cherry chip and they went fast. We ended up just throwing away the cake a couple days after because no one would touch it. we definitely learned our lesson. 5 days after that was my birthday, on the 4th of January, but we celebrated it the Saturday before since my birthday fell on a Monday. So on Saturday we decided to hit up Fetal fotos in Murray to find out the gender of our new one that will join our family in June. That was part of my birthday present and it was a fun experience, definitely way better than the fatal studios in the mall. more comfortable atmosphere. That night we had a couple friends over and my family for a small party. we had hot dogs for dinner and for desert of course the cake which was a better than sex cake. It consists of sweetened condensed milk caramel whipped cream and toffe bits all on the same cake. with all the creamy stuff drizzled throughout the cake making it just moist and delicious. I got lots of fun things for my birthday as well. The baby gender check was one of them, I got the carrie underwood CD and Lucky perfume and an in styler!!! its the coolest straightener. From my parents i got a super cute hand purse that I can use on formal nights for our next cruise in a couple years. inside were a couple of gift cards to wal mart, which I will use so fast!
All in all we had a great year. Lots and lots happened and we hope that this year we will be able to move on to greener pastures and be on our own again. It is very hard being in someone elses house and have to share everything. I want so bad to be able to run my own house again and not have to worry so much about what gets broken or touched or who is still sleeping. It is also hard not having friends nearby that I can hang with during the day that also have kids so that my girls can play. It has been a good year though all in all, we are all still healthy and living life.