GOING INSANE

So I went to a Dr. app a couple of weeks ago where I explained to my Dr. that I was having a lot of contractions and sharp shooting pains through my stomach, so he decided to check my cervix to see if it had dilated any. Much to my dismay, it had started to dilate already a 1 and I was only 30 weeks at the time. So he put me on bed rest, which has been extremely hard for me, BUT since we are living my my in law's my mother in law has been my saving grace! She wakes up with the girls in the morning and takes care of their every need all day long since I cant go up the stairs or walk all too much ( even though I have cheated many times). So I have been on bed rest for the past two weeks now, the longest but shortest two weeks of my life. I had another Dr. app today where I had to give a report on everything that had been going on. Despite me laying down or sitting all day even with occasional standups and walk arounds, I still was having contractions and sharp pains through my thighs and lots of pressure in my lower back and lower abdomen. So he directed me to stay on bed rest and hope that things hold off until 34 weeks, but he is really wanting me to get to 36 weeks. At 36 weeks he said he would take me off of bedrest and let the baby come when she wants. So I could be having her a lot earlier, which makes me happy, but also nervous, because I for sure don't want to have any problems and would hate to see her in the NICU. So I will keep my fingers crossed that she grows and develops quickly so that she can enter this world perfect and healthy as ever!

The negatives of being on bed rest is I never hear from anyone, family and friends included, I very rarely get a text or calls from anyone and am dying to have my phone ring just so I can chat with someone. I really miss not being able to do normal day routines with my girls. My favorite was holding Brynlee with her blanket and singing her a song before bed. She always gave me this look like I love you mom, and since I have been deprived of that, she now only like daddy or Nana to lay her down which makes me sad. It has definitely been a hard couple weeks staring at the same walls, to keep myself busy I just make bows and watch movies and read books. Makes time go by a little faster for me so I am not constantly looking at the clock. I keep telling myself that this is such a short time in life compared to the whole scheme of things and that can make it through another 4 weeks of this.