Only a matter of time....

Waiting is so hard when you are right at the end of pregnancy! I am now 36 weeks and I am also off of bed rest. So Hailey decided since I was off of bed rest that she didn't need to come anymore. My Dr. told me that I could go into labor any time since I was dilated to a three already and have been for almost a week and 60% effaced. I am so curious as to what I am dilated to or if I am the same as I was last Thursday. My next app is not until the 3rd of June and I will be 38 weeks at that point, in which my dr will strip my membranes to help out if I have not had her by then. So I am just a tad anxious and just waiting for the contractions to come and not stop. They have been doing that for the past couple day's. They will come and then after 4 or 5 of them in a row, BAM they just disappear. not very fun to get me all excited and then rip it away from me. Oh well. I have been going on walks in the morning with my girls to the park and will continue to do so to kind of push things along. It's good for me to be able to get out since I was not able to do so for several weeks. It is also good for the girl's, they get their outside play time at the park and I get my exercise. Win win situation for us all:) So hopefully my next post will be because I have pictures for our new one and a fun story to tell!
Cross your fingers for me and send happy labor vibes my way as Paula would say...:)

confirmations

It has been such a wonderful couple of days! It did not start off so wonderful though. Two days ago I had an app with Dr. England. I told him that everything was the same as it was two weeks prior and so he decided it would be best to see how far my cervix was dilated. Sure enough my cervix was not behaving, even though I was doing absolutely nothing all day long. I was already dilated to a two and 50% effaced. He really wants me to be at 36 weeks, which is in just 2 weeks. So needless to say I am still on the lovely bed rest, but that is okay as long as our Hailey gets here safe and sound. That night I started getting really sharp cramping in my lower stomach with contractions every now and again, so I was not too concerned. The next morning proved to be worse though, I was still having the cramping but now it was all I could do to even get out of bed because it hurt so much and then I was constantly in the bathroom throughout the day. I had not been feeling sick except for the stomach twists. Later in the morning I had got to the point where I felt like I had the chills and was extremely tired, so I just lay in bed with the blankets pulled up high trying to ignore the irritating pain. Later that night Steve and I had planned to go on our routine date night, but with everything that was going on we weren't going to be going anywhere. SO we planned a date night in our room! :) Steve went to Panda Express and got me a 4 entree meal for the price of a 3 entree! I had orange chicken, mushroom chicken, Sweet fire chicken and broccoli beef with fried rice and noodles. MMMMMMMM it was so delicious. Continuing on though, I was still in so much pain, so I asked Steve to call our good friend Roy Roberts over to give me a blessing. I have always had such wonderful experiences with blessings and was very much looking forward to being relieved of, if not all, some of the pain. The blessing was more than I had ever imagined it would be. The moment their hands were placed on my head I was immediately filled with this warm sensation starting from my head all the way to my toes and I could not help but cry. I was told not to worry about when Hailey would come into this world because when she did come she would be happy and healthy and there would be no problems. I was then told that she and I would have a special bond that I would not have with my other children and that she would be able to come and talk to me about anything that was going on in her life. He said that I would be able to have extra patience and tolerance towards my other children during this difficult time and that my love for them would only increase from where it was now, That my heavenly father loved me and was proud of me and my choices, That I would be able to sleep peacefully and be able to get the rest I needed to feel my best and that this pain would be relieved from me. Everything came from such a higher power and it was so amazing to feel that love from my savior and know that he knows me individually among the billions of people in this world. What was so amazing was after the blessing ended, I stood up and it was like the pain had melted away that I ad been feeling all day long! What a miracle! I then decided it would be best to take a nice warm bath to relax my muscles and have time to contemplate everything that had just happened. Going to bed that night was so wonderful not feeling the pain I had been feeling for the past day and a half. Even though it did not last, I was happy to have it relieved enough that I could sleep. Today I am feeling under the weather, but that is okay, I am not worrying and saying what if this and what if that. I know heavenly father is watching over me and my family and will do what is best for us. I know this gospel is true, how could anyone deny the feelings the spirit brings? I know I never will.

Just BREATHE

So I have decided I officially hate Braxton Hicks contractions, they don't hurt at all, but having them all day long makes it so hard on my lungs. I can't breath at all, and I find myself most of the time trying not to hyperventilate! So annoying.
Last Night at 3 am I woke up suddenly cause I heard very faintly someone crying upstairs, I thought for sure it was KaraLynn so I woke up Steve to go check on her, which he was very irritated at me for. He went halfway up the stairs and then came back down saying I was crazy and there was complete silence, so very irritated I got out of bed, crawled over him (very heard to do being prego) and went up myself only to find her completely konked out. So I find myself feeling stupid cause I KNOW I heard someone crying. so I laid back down in bed and listened and again could hear the crying, I KNEW I WASN'T GOING CRAZY!!! As I listened harder it almost seemed like ti was outside, so then I was awake for about an hour until I couldn't hear it anymore worrying if there really was someone outside crying and if I was a horrible person for not checking??? Guess I will never know what it was or who it was. CrAzY

update on fishing trip

So the fishing trip that Steve went on for steelhead, yeah not so hot. I guess that a lot of the fish were gone and none were biting. So the whole trip was a bust. All Steve caught were a bunch of crap fish and missed a couple steelhead, his dad on the other hand caught a couple, but had to let them go because they were wild, and you can only keep the hatchery ones. LAME... So oh well, but here are a couple photos from the trip:)

GOING INSANE

So I went to a Dr. app a couple of weeks ago where I explained to my Dr. that I was having a lot of contractions and sharp shooting pains through my stomach, so he decided to check my cervix to see if it had dilated any. Much to my dismay, it had started to dilate already a 1 and I was only 30 weeks at the time. So he put me on bed rest, which has been extremely hard for me, BUT since we are living my my in law's my mother in law has been my saving grace! She wakes up with the girls in the morning and takes care of their every need all day long since I cant go up the stairs or walk all too much ( even though I have cheated many times). So I have been on bed rest for the past two weeks now, the longest but shortest two weeks of my life. I had another Dr. app today where I had to give a report on everything that had been going on. Despite me laying down or sitting all day even with occasional standups and walk arounds, I still was having contractions and sharp pains through my thighs and lots of pressure in my lower back and lower abdomen. So he directed me to stay on bed rest and hope that things hold off until 34 weeks, but he is really wanting me to get to 36 weeks. At 36 weeks he said he would take me off of bedrest and let the baby come when she wants. So I could be having her a lot earlier, which makes me happy, but also nervous, because I for sure don't want to have any problems and would hate to see her in the NICU. So I will keep my fingers crossed that she grows and develops quickly so that she can enter this world perfect and healthy as ever!

The negatives of being on bed rest is I never hear from anyone, family and friends included, I very rarely get a text or calls from anyone and am dying to have my phone ring just so I can chat with someone. I really miss not being able to do normal day routines with my girls. My favorite was holding Brynlee with her blanket and singing her a song before bed. She always gave me this look like I love you mom, and since I have been deprived of that, she now only like daddy or Nana to lay her down which makes me sad. It has definitely been a hard couple weeks staring at the same walls, to keep myself busy I just make bows and watch movies and read books. Makes time go by a little faster for me so I am not constantly looking at the clock. I keep telling myself that this is such a short time in life compared to the whole scheme of things and that can make it through another 4 weeks of this.

Fishing Trip

Pictures soon to follow! So Steve left early this morning for his annual Steel head fishing trip with his dad and friend Harley. It is in Idaho somewhere, but it is 6 hrs away from here. Get got up at 4:45 this morning to leave at 5! he had everything all ready and was gone for about an hour when I felt his cell hone vibrate at my feet. He had unplugged it and taken his charger for the wall and car and left his phone here! So needless to say I am feeling a little bit of a withdraw from him. I have no contact with him until he gets home Saturday evening. Long trip and a long 3 days without hearing his voice. To top it off I can't stand sleeping alone in our bed! I did it all growing up so why is it a problem now??? Totally stupid but I guess I have grown used to having someone there to protect me and keep me warm since I am always so cold! Anyway, he will be back Saturday evening so that needs to come fast. In the mean time I have done laundry, cleaned our room and both girls rooms, vacuumed, folded and put away laundry and also started more laundry in the washer. So I was finally able to get myself in the mood to do something productive which I have not done all week. So I am hoping to get myself caught back up before Steve gets home so he can come home to all clean clothes and a clean room. I was not in the mood to cook and I needed diapers anyway, so I drove the 5 minutes to Wal-Mart and got diapers and also bought the girls popcorn chicken from the deli. They love the chicken there so I knew they would be happy! So all in all it has been half of a good day at least. I got to spend time with my girls, and even though they cried for daddy most of the day and I wished that he was there too it was still an okay day.
Tomorrow Leslie, the girls, and I are going to go to Marie Calendar's because we have a coupon for a free pie! MMMMMM So we will get some yummy food and a pie and then Saturday morning we are going to go spend some time with Jenn and her kids and go to Wheeler farm to take pictures and have fun with the kids for a few hours. I am so excited to get some cute pictures and let the kids run! SO I will soon have pictures of Steve's fishing trip and then pictures from Wheeler Farm!

Friends!

We have for sure had so much fun the past couple weeks with making new friends! Steve and I have been going to a financial peace class that is being hosted through the church and we met up with the Crookstons that are in our ward as well going to the class. We started sitting next to them and goofin' off in class BAD US! So we exchanged phone numbers and started talking a lot over text and facebook and found out that KaraLynn was 6 months younger than Brighton and Brynlee was only 3 months younger than Morgan! They quickly got into a tight friendship and Kara and Brighton are so stinkin' cute together! Brynlee doesn't seem to care who she plays with as long as she is included! They love being able to come over to Jenn's because the backyard is so big and there are lots of toys for them to play with and lots of friends. As for me, I finally was able to find someone I could talk to and hang out with too that helped me stay sane and not stress out so much! I have not had a friend like that since High School and I really needed someone like that in my life. Steve for sure is happy about it too because he knows I have somewhere our girls can play and somewhere I can go and someone to hang with! We have had many fun days over here and I love every minute of it, even though we don't do anything at all, just watch the kids play and make lunch, and just chat it really is the highlight of my days! Friends are definitely good to have around!
We had a relief society birthday dinner last night so I went and picked up Jenn and her sister Paula and we just carpooled together. I brought this yummy Strawberry jello cake and Paula brought this divine looking German Chocolate cake!!! it seriously looked like something off of Matilda! That awesome cake that boy is forced to eat? yeah mmmmm! So we had a good time there and after is usually where it catches me in a weird place because I never have had a reason to stay after because I don't have friends to talk with. This time Jenn, Paula, Elizabeth and I stayed almost 45 minutes after just talking and laughing! It was so much fun! Life is for sure rich when you have friends to spend it with and laugh with!

Kara decides she wants to be a beautician

So kara decided a couple weeks ago that she wanted to be a beautician! I had gone to do something I can't remember where I went, but in the mean time steve Text me saying that kara had cut her hair!!! I was so sad cause she had to have a bunch of hair cut off before for having gum melted into it to her scalp... So she went from middle back length hair to chin length. ANYWAY, So I asked him how bad it was and all he said was that she just looked really stupid! So I was really nervous to go home. When I got inside I saw her hair, she had cut off half her hair on the right side of her head so it kinda looked like half a mullet. So ugly! So to fix it I just combed over more hair from the other side to make it took not so bad. I thought I had it fixed.

The next day i come downstairs after just a few minutes of them being alone and see hair all over the floor, I look up and see KaraLynn standing there with scissors in hand and look at her hair.... here is the result... see for yourself!

So as you can see, the right side of her head is really thinned out from the day before and then the new haircut she cut off most of her bangs and then also did this to Brynlee's hair....

So now Brynlee also has ugly hair thanks to her big sister who chopped the crown of her hair off to the scalp. So it is spiky and when I put it in ponytails it spikes around it so its cute when its done, but just down like this it looks horrible. SO SAD!! I told kara that we were going to chop off her hair like a boys cause it was so destroyed and she just sobbed! So I felt like I had made my point and just do my best to make it look decent. I can now laugh at this and later will always remember how sad I was but how funny it really was. Who cares! Atleast hair grows back! So this is what they look like when I have it all done cute

And Brynlee...

February!

This month has been one for the books for us! It was really exciting at first then turned sour really fast. We got word from our renters that they had bought a house and would be moving out so we could move back on march 1st. We were excited about it because that meant we would be able to be on our own again and just in time for the baby to come into our lives. A few days later our renters had still not made their rent payment for the month of Feb. so I text her and asked where it was. She said that they weren't going to pay it because that's what our security deposit was for. Needless to say they went completely against the contract and now are taking them to court for the rent, plus damages. Plans were still in full swing for us to move in on the 1st of March so that was still really exciting and I have been really anxious because I just need my own space and privacy. In the mean time...

KaraLynn got really sick. She was throwing up for reasons we have no idea. It was all dry heaving and went on all night long. So I was one tired mommy the next day. She seemed to be Ok throughout the next day and slowly we started to let her eat here and there just to make sure she would not throw up a whole bunch of stuff. So She finally got past it and was fine. The next day Brynlee started to get really cranky and nothing seemed to calm her down. She started to get a fever, luckily without throwing up, and at first it was 101.5 then it went to 102. so that was a rough night too. she would get so hot she would sweat so I was constanly in there giving more tylenol to make the fever go down. Thus lasted for 2 days then finally subsided. THEN KaraLynn decided she wanted a fever too... Hers went from 100 to 101 to 102 to 103!!! Even though I was giving Tylenol to her it would not help. So Steve being wonderful took over for me and put her in a lukewarm bath which brought it back down to 102 and throughout the night with the help of a cold washrag to her head it went to normal by the next afternoon. Rough couple weeks that was. Little did I know it was just beginning...
Within the next few days I started to have lots of Braxton hicks contractions. They didn't seem to want to stop and suddenly I started to have hard cramping with it too which made me really nervous. So I got on the phone with my dr and told them what was going on. they had me come in for some tests to see if I had infections which were all negative. They told me to go straight to labor and delivery the next day if I was still experiencing them. So the next morning I got up and felt completely fine. did my normal stuff, dishes, breakfast, getting the girls dressed. About an hour into the day I started having them again hard so I went in. My doctor checked me and told me everything was fine and hoped it was just growing pains pulling things around, but that he wanted me on a strict bedrest the next week! I was not allowed to walk around very much, no stairs, no holding my baby, and I needed a babysitter to do it all for me. Luckily I had my mother in law (LIFESAVER) and she took good care of them for me. It eventually went away. Phewww...
the closer we came to march 1st the more stressed we became realizing we didn't have the funds for food when we moved out. The monthly income just wasn't all adding up and we were coming out short a lot! So we had some heart to hearts with our inlaws and decided that we would continue to rent out our home in Eagle Mountain until we knew if Steve would be getting the job in Idaho. It was a very hard decision and lots of tears were involved on my part because I didn't want to accept the fact that we could not do it. Now that it is all said and done and we have it back on the market we feel and know we made the right choice and are just grateful for family that can help us out so generously. We may not be where we want to be right now, but in the long term scheme of things we will be in a good spot and be able to do things on our own easily. I know if we keep making the right choices with our finances and continue to pay off things and eliminate the crud we got ourselves into we will be fine and come out on top! Life is good despite all that is going on because I have my wonderful husband and my beautiful CRAZY girls with me to help me through and soon I will have a precious miracle from heaven in a few short months. Life is crazy but good:)

Life this year

So this year has been a crazy one already! So here is my best to fit it all in.

Steve got a call back from Idaho for the job at the Site, he is now in the top 8 people being looked at out of the 650 that applied and then the 35 that got interviews and now the top 8, and 4 are being hired. He toured the areas he could that he didn't need a clearance for and felt really good about the job. The benefits are really great, the pay is twice what we make now, which we will never make here in Utah, and it's in a place where we feel like home. We would be living in the Idaho Falls area. We have no idea when we will be starting the job though. Right now we are going through an FBI clearance which they say could take anywhere from 4 months to a year and a half, so it's just waiting, waiting, waiting. I guess the FBI puts this more on the non important list, so we are really hoping they get it done in the 4 month time period so we don't have to sit in limbo for so long.
We got word from our renters that they had purchased a house and were going to be out March 1st. So we are really excited to be moving back to Eagle Mountain next month. I am really antsy to be on my own again and have a place that is more secure for my kids. It has been really rough on my oldest, KaraLynn, especially. She acts out a LOT and I can't seem to make it stop. There is not enough consistency in discipline and things that she can and can't do. The past few nights have been the worst. She has been waking up in the middle of the night and coming upstairs to sleep on the couch which I don't mind as long as she is quiet, but then she decided to start waking up Brynlee to play because she was bored, which did not set well with me. So then I told her she had to stay in her room when she woke up. The next night she wouldn't even sleep in her room and she would scream for about 3 hrs! She said she was scared of her room and the monsters that would come out of pictures and through her windows. That did not set well with me since I had such bad experiences when I was little. So I decided not to ignore it and also decided she was too young at 3 yrs old to be sleeping in her own room in the basement by herself. So since there is no where else for her to go, she now has a bed on our floor at the foot of our bed until we move back into our house in march. So we are hoping it is a fast fly by month.
Our baby is growing normal and healthy so far! I am due June 18Th 2010 and we are expecting another girl. It is my favorite part and something I have major withdrawals from when they are born, when they kick me. I love being able to feel her move around and know her moods and when she isn't too happy with me. She is EXTREMELY active and even my doctor was getting frustrated because he was trying to measure her but she would keep doing somersaults making it hard for him to measure her head. Too funny. We are so excited to meet her in June! Just a few short months away. Another reason why I an anxious to get back into the house. There is no way we would be able to fit 3 kids here.
Last night I had the strangest dream, but it was such a good one. I went into labor and Steve wouldn't be there because he was stuck at work. When the baby was born the doctor handed her to me and said congratulations, you have a beautiful healthy baby BOY! I was like wait I was supposed to have a girl???!!! I was so happy but sad cause Steve couldn't be there to see his son be born. But once he got there it was so great, and we ended up naming him Cooper Stephan Ohngren. He was so precious and I still remember how it felt to hold that new baby in my arms, the smell and the feel of his skin against mine. It really is the most incredible feeling ever. I am extremely excited for our little girl to come, but if she turned out to be a boy in the end I wouldn't not mind that so much:)
Well that is us for now. Busy Crazy life, but wouldn't trade a second of it!

ITS A GIRL

We found out on the 2ND of January from Fetal Fotos in Murray that we are welcoming another Little girl into our home. We were really hoping it was time for our boy to come, but not the case and we will just have to wait a little bit longer. I am really hoping our boy comes next because it is our last baby. Only 4 kids for this Ohngren family. We are not sure on names yet for her because we were really counting on a boy so we only had boy names chosen. Oh well, there is always a time and place and this little girl was supposed to come now so we are happy and anxious to meet her in June of 2010!

Christmas 2009 and birthdays

I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas. I know that the Ohngren family did! We got so many wonderful gifts from everyone and I think the best part was just seeing how excited KaraLynn and Brynlee were. Well maybe not so much Brynlee, But Kara Could hardly sleep the night before. We got both girls into bed at 8:30, and started to set up stuff in the front room. Brynlee got a bunch of fun toys which she desperately needed. she got this rocking horse that sings and she just loves it! She sat on it the whole morning while I opened her gifts for her. She was not all into the whole Christmas thing, considering that she is only 1. She also got a few different clothes and fun candy. KaraLynn got clothes and a Vtech Vmotion from Santa Clause which she does not totally get how to play but she is sure trying. She also got lipstick, chapstick, playdough, a bicycle helmet, lots of books and coloring books markers and crayons, she made out like a fat rat! Steve and I got lots of fun things as well including a george foreman grill, a toolbox for Steve for his taxidermy supplies, I also got him a camera for his hunting which is so nice! He got me some Cd's, A huge red purse that I love! and a wallet that matches, it looks like crocodile skin. SO CUTE! I got another purse from my mother in law that is super cute too and am just waiting to use it. I got cookbooks and other fun stuff, but we got lots of nice gifts too and have wonderful family that helped out way more than they should have LOL but it was sure appreciated.
5days after Christmas came Brynlee's 1st birthday. she was so cute, she really is not into the opening presents thing, but that's OK she has next year to be more into it. we had my family, the coopers, come over to The Ohngrens house for the celebration, we had cake that looked like birthday presents stacked on each other because of the way I decided to put the icing on. It was cute but the cake we used was strawberry which we will never do again. Super sweet! too sweet for me, so needless to say we also did cupcakes and those were cherry chip and they went fast. We ended up just throwing away the cake a couple days after because no one would touch it. we definitely learned our lesson. 5 days after that was my birthday, on the 4th of January, but we celebrated it the Saturday before since my birthday fell on a Monday. So on Saturday we decided to hit up Fetal fotos in Murray to find out the gender of our new one that will join our family in June. That was part of my birthday present and it was a fun experience, definitely way better than the fatal studios in the mall. more comfortable atmosphere. That night we had a couple friends over and my family for a small party. we had hot dogs for dinner and for desert of course the cake which was a better than sex cake. It consists of sweetened condensed milk caramel whipped cream and toffe bits all on the same cake. with all the creamy stuff drizzled throughout the cake making it just moist and delicious. I got lots of fun things for my birthday as well. The baby gender check was one of them, I got the carrie underwood CD and Lucky perfume and an in styler!!! its the coolest straightener. From my parents i got a super cute hand purse that I can use on formal nights for our next cruise in a couple years. inside were a couple of gift cards to wal mart, which I will use so fast!
All in all we had a great year. Lots and lots happened and we hope that this year we will be able to move on to greener pastures and be on our own again. It is very hard being in someone elses house and have to share everything. I want so bad to be able to run my own house again and not have to worry so much about what gets broken or touched or who is still sleeping. It is also hard not having friends nearby that I can hang with during the day that also have kids so that my girls can play. It has been a good year though all in all, we are all still healthy and living life.

Christmas Chaos

I have to say I absolutely love the Christmas season! I love the gift giving and I can't hide that I like receiving them too. For our shopping this year Steve and I decided we would brave the crowds and try out black Friday sales. Our first stop was Toys R Us, Biggest mistake of our lives, The line went about a mile long and we were just about at the end of it. The sale started at midnight and they were only letting in 20 people every 10 minutes or so. So needless to say the line moved extremely slow and it was bitter cold out. Steve and I stood with my sister Missy and her friend Charlotte for about 2 hrs, and there was still another 1 1/2 hr wait, so Steve and I decided to bag it only because we were going to get one toy from there for Brynlee, so I was not too concerned about it. So Then we headed to our wonderful Riverton Wal-Mart where the sale started at 5. we got there at about 1:30 AM and we were both so tired. we had not gone to sleep at all the night before. Being pregnant and not sleeping do not mix well. I was going to be getting Brynlee a vtech musical table that was on sale form 40 to 19, Kara was getting a Baby play set that had a stroller and highchair a potty and a crib, and also a Vtech V learning active learning game that plugs into the TV to tech her shapes and colors and numbers. I was then standing waiting by some toys and realized all my toys were on opposite ends of the building which meant a lot of scurrying around on my part considering Steve had left for Target to get our one item there. Luckily I had a friend that was getting some of the same stuff I was, so she was able to get stuff for me and I likewise for her. She even got her friend to help me out by getting Kara's Vtech thing. So I got the little table and some Christmas pajamas and then also decided that I would get Steve a Camera for his hunting. All we have is a Nikon and its a big nice camera that I would not let him take with him hunting. The is just a small digital one that he can take wherever, so I am pretty excited about that. Steve like I said went to target just down the street. He was headed for the Double Screen DVD player that hooks to the back of the seats so the girls can watch TV shows in the car. SO HAPPY ABOUT THAT!!! they hate car rides and this will make it so much easier on us, especially when we go on long car rides which happens frequently going to and from Idaho. Pretty much done with all the shopping now, Steve just has to finsh with me and with then he has to also buy for Brynlee;s birthday on the 30th and mine which is on the 4Th of January. too much going on this month.

Speaking of Idaho, Steve got called for his interview for the site. He would be working as a security officer out there. It is a marine engineering company. We drove down there on the night of the 30Th of November, and Steve's interview was on the 1st an 9 am. He was nervous, but since he had an in at the place it was not such a bad experience. The people who were interviewing Steve knew his cousin Afton and her dad Eric, so they highly recommended him and they gave him an interview. There were about 600 applicants by the time it was all said and done and they only had 30 interviews for I think the 5 people being hired. Steve felt that it went really well with one Guy, but the other two were hung up on his headaches because he was medically discharged from the Army for it. It has never affected his work and he has always been really good at what he does. They were happy with the fact he is LEO certified and scored a 50/50 on his last certification on his Gloc. So they were glad that they would not have to train him on that, and he is already used to wearing heavy accessories on his uniform for example: Bullet proof vest, utility belt which holds a taser, gun, handcuffs, flashlight, mase I think, and all that together is a lot of weight to carry around and they were concerned he would not be able to handle it... He kind of chuckled at that since he wears that outfit every day. So we are still waiting to hear back from them now. We are hoping in the next few weeks to find out a yes or no. when and if he gets the job it is a 4 month clearance that he has to go through which means our whole life is no longer personal, they know everything about us, every detail, so if he gets it we wont be moving down there for at least another 6 months. We will see, but we are really hoping and praying to get it considering it is 50,000 a year, and with the overtime he will be making double that! I can't even imagine 100,000 a year! It really is just a tad out of reach right now LOL. We have lots of adventures ahead of us with this job and having a new baby in our lives as well in June. Crazy life.

Brynlee will be one on the 30Th of this month! I cant believe it! my how times flies. She is walking and has been since she was 10 months, and she has currently 3 teeth and working on the 4Th. KaraLynn is going to be going into Primary Starting in January, She is so big and so smart, she loves going to Nursery and playing with all the kids, she is so good with sharing and helping the other kids be happy. She is such a joy, most of the time anyway LOL, she has plenty of moments. well that is it for us for now, Life is great and I have the best family ever!

Have I done any good today?

It is a funny thing when for some reason in one lesson and meeting someone for the first time, they teach you something that you needed to hear and learn from. I don't know about you, but that happens to me quite frequently. Today I went visiting teaching in my ward for the first time with a gal I had never met. She offered to do the lesson and I brought some goodies. The topic we were supposed to discuss was our choice from any conference talk, and she chose Have I done any good Today from Thomas S. Monson. Basically it was saying that you need to consume yourself in helping others and giving to others without complaint. If you did not hear it or read I suggest you do because it is very powerful.
My problem lately and why this message was so powerful to me was because lately I have found myself being very selfish with the time I have with my husband. I love him so much that I don't really like it when he does things for other people because he does so often, because he is a good person with a big heart. He is always so giving and he enjoys helping others and doing things for them that need to be done. I find myself very irritated with him for this because I want ME time and FAMILY time. I realized today that I need to have a bigger heart like Steve does and start doing my own services and giving of myself freely. There are so many that need help and so many that I can do something good for, but I have not been looking for it. so basically I am going to try to do something good for others... Now ask yourself...

HAVE YOU DONE ANY GOOD TODAY? and APPLY it in your life:)

November 2009

It Has been such a crazy month! Lots to talk and write about and not a whole ton of time either! I will give it my best shot though.

For starters we are still renting out our home in Eagle Mountain so that we have to freedom to go wherever the road takes us with out of state jobs. Steve has been applying mostly just in Idaho but also a couple here in Utah. He applied for a parole officer job in Salt Lake City and had an interview a couple weeks ago that went really well, but the talk is that they are just bringing back in the rifters, so the interview process was a big waste of time we think. He also applied at a place called the site in Idaho Falls. It is an officer job as well and actually pays considerably higher than what he is getting paid now. We are Looking at about 50 grand a year if he gets this job. He was called for an interview on December 1st, they are hiring 8 people and there are 40 people being interviewed. We are really crossing our fingers and praying that he lands this job. We have wanted and felt like we should move to Idaho for some time, but have not had the opportunity with jobs thus far. We are hoping that with some faith that things will work out the way they are supposed to.

Steve and I just recently got the opportunity to go on the cruise wer have had planned since January of this year! Long time to wait. We left on November 1st for Mexico on the Carnival Cruise lines. It was the new ship, and was not all that impressive after seeing other ships, but it was still really fun. We went to Puerto Vallarta Mexico first. The place was a dump! no seat belts in any vehicles, kids driving cars, trash and feces all over the place, you could just smell it! We did a shore excursion with zip lining in the jungle part which was extremely fun! HAd a little clothing mishap on one of the lines while hanging upside down, but not much can be done to make that go away LOL. We went down thirteen ziplines and then had some yummy fresh made salsa and chips.... Then we took the long ride back to our ship. We then went to Mazatlan, where we had horseback riding on the beach! That was way fun! We got to run our horses in the water and see dead sting rays on the beach from the hurricane that had just ended. Lots of puffer fish and stingrays were on the beach. Sad to see them there :( we ended that one at a fish house where i had a chicken cheese quesadilla that was simply more amazing than I can even describe and steve got fresh mahi mahi that was to die for! The next day we were in Cabo san Lucas which was so beautiful! All we did there was do the shopping, we got some really pretty hand painted plates and bowls for super cheap and some cute presents for our girls. All in all it was an unforgettable trip that we look forward to doing again! Here are a few pictures of the trip!





Lastly and I think the most exciting of all is about a week before I started to get really sick. I was nauseous all the time and I thought for sure I had the flu because everyone else did. I decided against all odds that I would take a pregnancy test even though I just knew it would be negative because it took so long for our second one. We had only tried once, but I guess that one time did it because there it was in bold letters PREGNANT! I was thrilled but also kind of nervous because Our youngest was only 9 months and I was nervous about what people would say and think. But after some time and a lot of negative feedback, I decided that I would just forget them all! if the didnt like it then forget them! it was not their choice, not their life. This is mine. I told myself that I was commanded to multiply and replenish the earth and that I was building my eternal family and i was happy with how it was going! So I just brushed it all off and said deal with it cause it is not going to go away. So we are expecting our third child June 19th ( so far) I will have a better date at my next app when they can see the baby better and get more accurate readings! We are crossing our fingers and toes and counting our lucky stars that this is a boy! third times the charm! We will keep you posted on this wonderful event and post pictures when we have them! Thanks to all those who are supportive and who are happy for us:) We are thrilled to be opening our family up to a new little angel!

OUr Brynlee who is now ten months old just started walking. She only crawled for about 3 weeks before she started taking one or two steps and then falling, but while we were away on our cruise she got the hang of it and is now walking full time and has some major attitude LOL. She especially likes to growl and hear her own voice. She is so full of energy and we love her so much! KaraLynn is 3 and has too much energy for me, sometimes I wish she would transfer some over to me so I can get through this morning sickness crap. She is such a big helper and just recently moved into her own room in the basement which she says she shares with her imaginary friend called "cousin" He has white eyes and goes everywhere with her. We even have to tuck him in at night and give him blankets and stuffed animals and give him kisses before bed. Weird, I know, but it makes her happy. I'm sure every kid goes through this, and it is a fun adventure!
Sorry im so horrible with updating, I need to do better but just never find the time. maybe that will be my goal for next year, to keep writing in my blog often. This is us for now! until my next entry!

The battle with sleep!

OK, so just so we are on the same page, Brynlee is 9 months old, and for some time she has not been sleeping AT ALL at night. She usually is up every hour, sometimes lets it go 2 hrs between waking up, but mainly every hour. She has been doing this for several months... Can you see how I might be frustrated? WELL last night I decided I had to be done with it because I was getting really short with the girls and had absolutely no patience whatsoever. I felt horrible about it, but I decided that I was going to have to let her cry it out like i had been told to by Doctor's. SO Night one was a little rough... We didn't get home from Eagle Mountain until 10:30 pm so it was already 2 hours past when they normally go down. Kara was fast asleep in the back seat as well as Brynlee So i was hopeful she would just stay asleep, but no such luck. We got Kara situated into our room on the floor and then I got Brynlee ready for bed. She had her normal bedtime bottle which calms her down and then I told her how much I loved her and gave her lots of hugs and kisses. Then like I always do (i sing to the girls at night) I sang Brynlee Twinkle Twinkle little star, Rock a by baby, and I am a child of God. She was calm while I was singing and then the second I went to leave she started to cry but I knew I needed to just walk out. So I waited for a while and when she was still going at it we went in and realized that for the first time she had pulled herself up on the side rail of the crib and was just standing there, and I don't think she knows how to sit back down after standing up LOL, I did not want her to fall down so I laid her back down and put her Binky back in and she closed her eyes, but the second my hand left her and she could not see me anymore she started crying again, but again I left. She went at it until 12 midnight and finally went to sleep... What a relief! I finally was able to get a full nights rest UNTIL about 4 in the morning I woke up to the sound of breathing on my face and i could feel the stare of lttle eyes on me. Kara had climbed into our bed and was just sitting there staring at me and breathing on my cheek. The nerd. So I told her to go to sleep, which she didn't do right away but several minutes later... All in all though I did get more sleep than I have had in months. Good feeling. I felt horrible but it is going to be better for us all in the long run I think.

Been a LONG time

It has been such a long time since i have written on here! I get so busy with life and everything else that I just have forgotten to get on... so there is a lot to write on. BUT here we go...

Steve just recently applied for a job for the Idaho Falls Police Department. He placed #11 out of the 45 people that applied and tested! WOOHOO... he did so good! they will be looking at the top ten to come back for more testing with the department in October. SO we are really hoping that a few of the people already have a job or are not interested anymore so that we can move to Idaho Falls or somewhere nearby. We love Idaho In general because the homes are so cheap and because our favoritest cousins live here!!!! LOL. So we will let you know how that testing goes. We should find out within the next month or so.

KaraLynn Just turned 3 and she is such a character!!! she is so full of energy sometimes i don't know what to do with it! She needs to pass some on to me to get through the day better. She loves helping out with her new sister... and sometimes helps a little bit too much when she wakes her up and says that she slept good... UGH annoying~ She also tries to give her a bottle which ends up all over Brynlees' face... what a mess. But non the less she is an awesome big sister and other than her constant nagging she is such a fun little girl. She is full of laughter and surprises!

Brynlee is now 9 Months old! crzy that i have not written on here since i was 7 months pregnant! Brynlee is definitely nothing like kara, she loves her pacifier and is a big whinner@! She likes to have the attention. She STILL does not sleep through the night. don't know what is up with that. karaLynn was sleeping through the night from the time we brought her home form the hospital... So needles to say I am pretty frustrated about being up several times during the night to feed her and put her back to sleep. so in turn I do not sleep hardly at all so luckily both girls are on a nap schedule for noon every day. so that is my time to be able to nap with them and regain my energy. Brynn is also my bigger child. She is such a chunk and it's so stinkin' cute! she has the cutest smile and always has soemthing to laugh about.

NOW me... I am just busy busy busy taking care of the girls. We have not been living in our house in eagle mountain since December of 2008. we are currently renting it out tot he floyd family and they are awesome renters. they take really good care of the house and have made a lot of improvements to the house. Earlier this year they helped us put in our fence. So that was really nice. Now when we move back we will have a house with a fenced in backyard. A LOT more privacy which i like. I hated having the neighbors walk through our yard! They also installed blinds throughout the house and painted rooms a lot of fun colors and designs. She did a lot of really neat yard work. They put in stone walkways to the side yeard and out in ground cover around the stones, so it looks really cool. And they will be leaving lot of the yard deco. for us because they have so much they don't know what to do with it all. So im really excited about that. I am still not working... Still a stay at home mom. It has it's up's and down's. I lve being able to be home and take care of my girls the way I want, I do not like the thought of leaving my kids with someone else and having them be raised their way. I love being able to experience all the little things that happen even when it is the frustrating things. Cause for some reason I look back at those times and really treasure them and try to appreciate everything even though sometimes, well a lot of times it is hard.... I just recently started watching my sisters 2 girls while they work. It is only 2 or 3 times a week and I get 30 a day. so it is more money than I had before. and I get to keep the girls with me for this so more time with them and the girls get to play with their cousins. Win Win situation the way I see it. I also just got an interview at the Developmental Center which is Tuesday the 8th. It ways $10 an hour which is more than any job i have been able to find. So im hoping that it works out and that i wont have to leave my girls with anyone for too long. We could really use the money so we shall see.

Pretty much that is all that has happened since i last wrote. not all too exciting, but it's life. I promise i wont take so long next time to write on the little things happeneing. I want to be able to look back and say OH i remember that happening! so i will be better!

Thanksgiving

This Thanksgiving was a bitter sweet one. We decided that as a family we would go to Idaho to steve's side of the family. His cousin Jeremy was in town from california and he had not seen him in a few years and wanted to catch up with him, so we decided that that would be the best move. Originally we were going to be having Thanksgiving with steves parents at his Aunt Kathi's but since his cousin was here thats what we did. His parents were pretty bummed about us not being there this year. I was torn both ways because I didnt get to see any of my immediate family. My parents decided that they would go to Washington with my dads cousin Bev, so I was sad not to see them. The first Thanksgiving not seeing them was harder than I thought it would be.
Idaho was really fun in the end... we arrived at steves aunts house at midnight thanksgiving day. IT was only a three hour drive from our house but we left later than we thought. We went to bed at 1:45 and then woke up at 6 am when steves cousin jeremy came into the room to give steve a hug, which woke up kara and made it so I could not sleep anymore. so we all got up and got ready for the day bright and early. we ended up falling asleep on the couch around 8:30 and slept until 10:30, which for me was very much needed being 8 months pregnant. We then went to Aftons house (steves other cousin) and hung out with them for several hours before the actual festivities started. Steve started frying the turkey at 3:30(we cannot have Thanksgiving without the fried turkey! so much better than oven turkey) and it was done within an hour so we had to wait to eat it until six! that was torture. In the end we had a lot of amazing food, saw a lot of family from my husbands side and talked a lot about past days. On friday around noon we decided we would go check out what black friday sales were looking like at the mall and toys r us. We ended up buying as a combined gift for steve and I a Nikon D40 camera with two lenses and a bunch of ad ons for only five hundred and saved 1400! we were thrilled. At the mall we each bought two pair of jeans and I also bought two shirts, and then at toys r us KaraLynn helped us choose out the gifts she would like for christmas. since she is only two she wont remember any of them so she had fun! we finally finished up our christmas shopping for everyone except for steves mom and then the rest of the gifts to exchange between steve and I. We hung out at julies ( steves Aunt) until friday night and then headed over to aftons to spend the rest of the vacation with her. We went to her boyfriends house on saturday noght and watched a movie and let the two girls play. they had so much fun together, kara was sad to have to leave but feel asleep within a couple of minutes being in the car. We eneded up in bed at 2 am and now on sunday we are getting ready to leave for home. we didnt get out of bed until 10:30 wich felt so heavenly. everyone was at church so we are packing and getting ready to head out around two. Fun times were had by all!

new news

Holli is now six months along in this wonderful pregnancy.We did find out we are having a GIRL! we are very excited. We were hoping for a boy but we are just as happy to be adding another angel to our family. Our son will come when it is time:) It has definitely been a very hard pregnancy for her. between having braxton hicks contractions and regular painful ones it has not been easy. She recently went to her doctor for a check up and found out that the opening to her cervix was extremely soft and so her doctor was afraid that she might start leaking fluid. Combined with the contractions it does not make for a great combination. So she has been taking it as easy as she can.
KaraLynn is right in the middle of potty training. She has been doing ok so far. We are only on day three of constant going, but have been trying to get her trained for several months. she just barely decided she was ready for it so needless to say we are ecstatic to not have to change two sets of diapers when the new one comes along. she is getting so big and her hair is super long. grows a lot faster than mom... She has been having a lot of fun with coloring books and likes to sing already. she is actually really accurate when she mimics notes. She will be three in May.
Steve is still working over at the Draper prison transporting inmates to various places. he loves it for the most part, but hates not knowing when he will be off work. the hours are so different every time its hard to plan anything. He is working really hard on the new baby room and it is so so cute. We are doing brown with pink and light green accents and i will post pictures when it is all complete. but he is really proud of how its turning out. He loves to come home and play with Kara. She misses him so much during the day so it is always a relief to see her happy and playing with her daddy... since he will have two he will have to share his adoration for both. somehow i think it will be really easy for him to do....
So thats our family right now. getting close to our second one and very excited for the whole prego thing to be over and done with. We will keep you posted.

Baby # 2

We just found out that we are going to be opening our arms to a second child! We are ecstatic. We have been trying for a year and a half and it finally paid off last week when my prego test read positive. I am due on January 4th 2009 MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! Crazy that that can actually happen. Its been a fun ride so far. Kara just turned two on the 16th of May, and she is in that terrible stage that we just LOVE:) I have the flu this week so I have been laying around battling headaches, morning sickness combined with achiness. It's been fantastic. I will keep everyone updated...