Only a matter of time....

Waiting is so hard when you are right at the end of pregnancy! I am now 36 weeks and I am also off of bed rest. So Hailey decided since I was off of bed rest that she didn't need to come anymore. My Dr. told me that I could go into labor any time since I was dilated to a three already and have been for almost a week and 60% effaced. I am so curious as to what I am dilated to or if I am the same as I was last Thursday. My next app is not until the 3rd of June and I will be 38 weeks at that point, in which my dr will strip my membranes to help out if I have not had her by then. So I am just a tad anxious and just waiting for the contractions to come and not stop. They have been doing that for the past couple day's. They will come and then after 4 or 5 of them in a row, BAM they just disappear. not very fun to get me all excited and then rip it away from me. Oh well. I have been going on walks in the morning with my girls to the park and will continue to do so to kind of push things along. It's good for me to be able to get out since I was not able to do so for several weeks. It is also good for the girl's, they get their outside play time at the park and I get my exercise. Win win situation for us all:) So hopefully my next post will be because I have pictures for our new one and a fun story to tell!
Cross your fingers for me and send happy labor vibes my way as Paula would say...:)

confirmations

It has been such a wonderful couple of days! It did not start off so wonderful though. Two days ago I had an app with Dr. England. I told him that everything was the same as it was two weeks prior and so he decided it would be best to see how far my cervix was dilated. Sure enough my cervix was not behaving, even though I was doing absolutely nothing all day long. I was already dilated to a two and 50% effaced. He really wants me to be at 36 weeks, which is in just 2 weeks. So needless to say I am still on the lovely bed rest, but that is okay as long as our Hailey gets here safe and sound. That night I started getting really sharp cramping in my lower stomach with contractions every now and again, so I was not too concerned. The next morning proved to be worse though, I was still having the cramping but now it was all I could do to even get out of bed because it hurt so much and then I was constantly in the bathroom throughout the day. I had not been feeling sick except for the stomach twists. Later in the morning I had got to the point where I felt like I had the chills and was extremely tired, so I just lay in bed with the blankets pulled up high trying to ignore the irritating pain. Later that night Steve and I had planned to go on our routine date night, but with everything that was going on we weren't going to be going anywhere. SO we planned a date night in our room! :) Steve went to Panda Express and got me a 4 entree meal for the price of a 3 entree! I had orange chicken, mushroom chicken, Sweet fire chicken and broccoli beef with fried rice and noodles. MMMMMMMM it was so delicious. Continuing on though, I was still in so much pain, so I asked Steve to call our good friend Roy Roberts over to give me a blessing. I have always had such wonderful experiences with blessings and was very much looking forward to being relieved of, if not all, some of the pain. The blessing was more than I had ever imagined it would be. The moment their hands were placed on my head I was immediately filled with this warm sensation starting from my head all the way to my toes and I could not help but cry. I was told not to worry about when Hailey would come into this world because when she did come she would be happy and healthy and there would be no problems. I was then told that she and I would have a special bond that I would not have with my other children and that she would be able to come and talk to me about anything that was going on in her life. He said that I would be able to have extra patience and tolerance towards my other children during this difficult time and that my love for them would only increase from where it was now, That my heavenly father loved me and was proud of me and my choices, That I would be able to sleep peacefully and be able to get the rest I needed to feel my best and that this pain would be relieved from me. Everything came from such a higher power and it was so amazing to feel that love from my savior and know that he knows me individually among the billions of people in this world. What was so amazing was after the blessing ended, I stood up and it was like the pain had melted away that I ad been feeling all day long! What a miracle! I then decided it would be best to take a nice warm bath to relax my muscles and have time to contemplate everything that had just happened. Going to bed that night was so wonderful not feeling the pain I had been feeling for the past day and a half. Even though it did not last, I was happy to have it relieved enough that I could sleep. Today I am feeling under the weather, but that is okay, I am not worrying and saying what if this and what if that. I know heavenly father is watching over me and my family and will do what is best for us. I know this gospel is true, how could anyone deny the feelings the spirit brings? I know I never will.