Only a matter of time....

Waiting is so hard when you are right at the end of pregnancy! I am now 36 weeks and I am also off of bed rest. So Hailey decided since I was off of bed rest that she didn't need to come anymore. My Dr. told me that I could go into labor any time since I was dilated to a three already and have been for almost a week and 60% effaced. I am so curious as to what I am dilated to or if I am the same as I was last Thursday. My next app is not until the 3rd of June and I will be 38 weeks at that point, in which my dr will strip my membranes to help out if I have not had her by then. So I am just a tad anxious and just waiting for the contractions to come and not stop. They have been doing that for the past couple day's. They will come and then after 4 or 5 of them in a row, BAM they just disappear. not very fun to get me all excited and then rip it away from me. Oh well. I have been going on walks in the morning with my girls to the park and will continue to do so to kind of push things along. It's good for me to be able to get out since I was not able to do so for several weeks. It is also good for the girl's, they get their outside play time at the park and I get my exercise. Win win situation for us all:) So hopefully my next post will be because I have pictures for our new one and a fun story to tell!
Cross your fingers for me and send happy labor vibes my way as Paula would say...:)

confirmations

It has been such a wonderful couple of days! It did not start off so wonderful though. Two days ago I had an app with Dr. England. I told him that everything was the same as it was two weeks prior and so he decided it would be best to see how far my cervix was dilated. Sure enough my cervix was not behaving, even though I was doing absolutely nothing all day long. I was already dilated to a two and 50% effaced. He really wants me to be at 36 weeks, which is in just 2 weeks. So needless to say I am still on the lovely bed rest, but that is okay as long as our Hailey gets here safe and sound. That night I started getting really sharp cramping in my lower stomach with contractions every now and again, so I was not too concerned. The next morning proved to be worse though, I was still having the cramping but now it was all I could do to even get out of bed because it hurt so much and then I was constantly in the bathroom throughout the day. I had not been feeling sick except for the stomach twists. Later in the morning I had got to the point where I felt like I had the chills and was extremely tired, so I just lay in bed with the blankets pulled up high trying to ignore the irritating pain. Later that night Steve and I had planned to go on our routine date night, but with everything that was going on we weren't going to be going anywhere. SO we planned a date night in our room! :) Steve went to Panda Express and got me a 4 entree meal for the price of a 3 entree! I had orange chicken, mushroom chicken, Sweet fire chicken and broccoli beef with fried rice and noodles. MMMMMMMM it was so delicious. Continuing on though, I was still in so much pain, so I asked Steve to call our good friend Roy Roberts over to give me a blessing. I have always had such wonderful experiences with blessings and was very much looking forward to being relieved of, if not all, some of the pain. The blessing was more than I had ever imagined it would be. The moment their hands were placed on my head I was immediately filled with this warm sensation starting from my head all the way to my toes and I could not help but cry. I was told not to worry about when Hailey would come into this world because when she did come she would be happy and healthy and there would be no problems. I was then told that she and I would have a special bond that I would not have with my other children and that she would be able to come and talk to me about anything that was going on in her life. He said that I would be able to have extra patience and tolerance towards my other children during this difficult time and that my love for them would only increase from where it was now, That my heavenly father loved me and was proud of me and my choices, That I would be able to sleep peacefully and be able to get the rest I needed to feel my best and that this pain would be relieved from me. Everything came from such a higher power and it was so amazing to feel that love from my savior and know that he knows me individually among the billions of people in this world. What was so amazing was after the blessing ended, I stood up and it was like the pain had melted away that I ad been feeling all day long! What a miracle! I then decided it would be best to take a nice warm bath to relax my muscles and have time to contemplate everything that had just happened. Going to bed that night was so wonderful not feeling the pain I had been feeling for the past day and a half. Even though it did not last, I was happy to have it relieved enough that I could sleep. Today I am feeling under the weather, but that is okay, I am not worrying and saying what if this and what if that. I know heavenly father is watching over me and my family and will do what is best for us. I know this gospel is true, how could anyone deny the feelings the spirit brings? I know I never will.

Just BREATHE

So I have decided I officially hate Braxton Hicks contractions, they don't hurt at all, but having them all day long makes it so hard on my lungs. I can't breath at all, and I find myself most of the time trying not to hyperventilate! So annoying.
Last Night at 3 am I woke up suddenly cause I heard very faintly someone crying upstairs, I thought for sure it was KaraLynn so I woke up Steve to go check on her, which he was very irritated at me for. He went halfway up the stairs and then came back down saying I was crazy and there was complete silence, so very irritated I got out of bed, crawled over him (very heard to do being prego) and went up myself only to find her completely konked out. So I find myself feeling stupid cause I KNOW I heard someone crying. so I laid back down in bed and listened and again could hear the crying, I KNEW I WASN'T GOING CRAZY!!! As I listened harder it almost seemed like ti was outside, so then I was awake for about an hour until I couldn't hear it anymore worrying if there really was someone outside crying and if I was a horrible person for not checking??? Guess I will never know what it was or who it was. CrAzY

update on fishing trip

So the fishing trip that Steve went on for steelhead, yeah not so hot. I guess that a lot of the fish were gone and none were biting. So the whole trip was a bust. All Steve caught were a bunch of crap fish and missed a couple steelhead, his dad on the other hand caught a couple, but had to let them go because they were wild, and you can only keep the hatchery ones. LAME... So oh well, but here are a couple photos from the trip:)

GOING INSANE

So I went to a Dr. app a couple of weeks ago where I explained to my Dr. that I was having a lot of contractions and sharp shooting pains through my stomach, so he decided to check my cervix to see if it had dilated any. Much to my dismay, it had started to dilate already a 1 and I was only 30 weeks at the time. So he put me on bed rest, which has been extremely hard for me, BUT since we are living my my in law's my mother in law has been my saving grace! She wakes up with the girls in the morning and takes care of their every need all day long since I cant go up the stairs or walk all too much ( even though I have cheated many times). So I have been on bed rest for the past two weeks now, the longest but shortest two weeks of my life. I had another Dr. app today where I had to give a report on everything that had been going on. Despite me laying down or sitting all day even with occasional standups and walk arounds, I still was having contractions and sharp pains through my thighs and lots of pressure in my lower back and lower abdomen. So he directed me to stay on bed rest and hope that things hold off until 34 weeks, but he is really wanting me to get to 36 weeks. At 36 weeks he said he would take me off of bedrest and let the baby come when she wants. So I could be having her a lot earlier, which makes me happy, but also nervous, because I for sure don't want to have any problems and would hate to see her in the NICU. So I will keep my fingers crossed that she grows and develops quickly so that she can enter this world perfect and healthy as ever!

The negatives of being on bed rest is I never hear from anyone, family and friends included, I very rarely get a text or calls from anyone and am dying to have my phone ring just so I can chat with someone. I really miss not being able to do normal day routines with my girls. My favorite was holding Brynlee with her blanket and singing her a song before bed. She always gave me this look like I love you mom, and since I have been deprived of that, she now only like daddy or Nana to lay her down which makes me sad. It has definitely been a hard couple weeks staring at the same walls, to keep myself busy I just make bows and watch movies and read books. Makes time go by a little faster for me so I am not constantly looking at the clock. I keep telling myself that this is such a short time in life compared to the whole scheme of things and that can make it through another 4 weeks of this.

Fishing Trip

Pictures soon to follow! So Steve left early this morning for his annual Steel head fishing trip with his dad and friend Harley. It is in Idaho somewhere, but it is 6 hrs away from here. Get got up at 4:45 this morning to leave at 5! he had everything all ready and was gone for about an hour when I felt his cell hone vibrate at my feet. He had unplugged it and taken his charger for the wall and car and left his phone here! So needless to say I am feeling a little bit of a withdraw from him. I have no contact with him until he gets home Saturday evening. Long trip and a long 3 days without hearing his voice. To top it off I can't stand sleeping alone in our bed! I did it all growing up so why is it a problem now??? Totally stupid but I guess I have grown used to having someone there to protect me and keep me warm since I am always so cold! Anyway, he will be back Saturday evening so that needs to come fast. In the mean time I have done laundry, cleaned our room and both girls rooms, vacuumed, folded and put away laundry and also started more laundry in the washer. So I was finally able to get myself in the mood to do something productive which I have not done all week. So I am hoping to get myself caught back up before Steve gets home so he can come home to all clean clothes and a clean room. I was not in the mood to cook and I needed diapers anyway, so I drove the 5 minutes to Wal-Mart and got diapers and also bought the girls popcorn chicken from the deli. They love the chicken there so I knew they would be happy! So all in all it has been half of a good day at least. I got to spend time with my girls, and even though they cried for daddy most of the day and I wished that he was there too it was still an okay day.
Tomorrow Leslie, the girls, and I are going to go to Marie Calendar's because we have a coupon for a free pie! MMMMMM So we will get some yummy food and a pie and then Saturday morning we are going to go spend some time with Jenn and her kids and go to Wheeler farm to take pictures and have fun with the kids for a few hours. I am so excited to get some cute pictures and let the kids run! SO I will soon have pictures of Steve's fishing trip and then pictures from Wheeler Farm!

Friends!

We have for sure had so much fun the past couple weeks with making new friends! Steve and I have been going to a financial peace class that is being hosted through the church and we met up with the Crookstons that are in our ward as well going to the class. We started sitting next to them and goofin' off in class BAD US! So we exchanged phone numbers and started talking a lot over text and facebook and found out that KaraLynn was 6 months younger than Brighton and Brynlee was only 3 months younger than Morgan! They quickly got into a tight friendship and Kara and Brighton are so stinkin' cute together! Brynlee doesn't seem to care who she plays with as long as she is included! They love being able to come over to Jenn's because the backyard is so big and there are lots of toys for them to play with and lots of friends. As for me, I finally was able to find someone I could talk to and hang out with too that helped me stay sane and not stress out so much! I have not had a friend like that since High School and I really needed someone like that in my life. Steve for sure is happy about it too because he knows I have somewhere our girls can play and somewhere I can go and someone to hang with! We have had many fun days over here and I love every minute of it, even though we don't do anything at all, just watch the kids play and make lunch, and just chat it really is the highlight of my days! Friends are definitely good to have around!
We had a relief society birthday dinner last night so I went and picked up Jenn and her sister Paula and we just carpooled together. I brought this yummy Strawberry jello cake and Paula brought this divine looking German Chocolate cake!!! it seriously looked like something off of Matilda! That awesome cake that boy is forced to eat? yeah mmmmm! So we had a good time there and after is usually where it catches me in a weird place because I never have had a reason to stay after because I don't have friends to talk with. This time Jenn, Paula, Elizabeth and I stayed almost 45 minutes after just talking and laughing! It was so much fun! Life is for sure rich when you have friends to spend it with and laugh with!